After I repented and believed in Jesus as Lord, I never had the desire to commit suicide again. Nothing had changed in terms of my circumstances, but when the lord of my heart changed from myself to Jesus, the problem of suicide was really solved at once and for all.
I no longer think that I'm useless and that I can't be loved by anyone. I no longer try to kill myself, because that's not who I am anymore. That's because the Almighty God died and rose again for someone like me and became my Lord.